29.11.03

Three posts in a day. Is this insane or what?

Meh, I have a random thought to bring out.
Love is very... interesting thing. No, I did not fall in love, I was just reading my friend's melo thingy and his overemotional statements. One thing I keenly observed was that he constantly told of how love ruined him, yet now he apparently has a new girlfriend or something. This is very curious for me. How can something so painful and affecting of him (I know his grades, they aren't so great) be something he continues to yearn for? Perhaps it is something like drugs. I suppose so.
Though, one thing I fear is what if this happens to me. And furthermore, if "love" does not go through, will I be able to live on? Alas, the best thing to do is hope I never have to deal with this, or at the very most, deal with it only with my family. >.> You can't really break up with a sister though, can you? ^-^
Emotion seems to express very negative side effects. I wonder... how much better can humanity be without emotion? At the very least, to strip down emotion... without side effects, of course. Not like modern day anti-depressents. Hmm. I feel sorry for people like my friend, though I wonder if I should.

Gotta know RPGs to understand...

TheMysteriousBox: hey hey join another RPG with me so I won't feel alone
ProfJbWolf: The Devided?
TheMysteriousBox: ya
TheMysteriousBox: did you see my signup? :D
ProfJbWolf: Future seeing Chicken
TheMysteriousBox: yea I wouldn't have joined it if I hadn't thought, "wow wouldn't it be cool if I were a chicken"
TheMysteriousBox: YOU CAN BE A DUCK!!!
TheMysteriousBox: LEGENDARY DUCK WARRIOR
ProfJbWolf: Umm...I'll be normal...

Sal2 reveals that he's just human like us

TheMysteriousBox: have you ever contemplated on your own stupidity?
TheMysteriousBox: oh yea yes you have
Numberonemole: No
TheMysteriousBox: with girls :P
Numberonemole: No no no
Numberonemole: That not stupid..that just...
Numberonemole: Male..ness..
TheMysteriousBox: you must acknowledge, that's one sign of stupidity in your field. :P
TheMysteriousBox: male = human
TheMysteriousBox: human = stupid
Numberonemole: Teenage male=non-human
TheMysteriousBox: but teenage male=stupid still
Numberonemole: I just never contemplate my own stupidity
TheMysteriousBox: the whole process of reproduction, phermones and attraction to the opposite gender is humanity
TheMysteriousBox: and its primitiveness
TheMysteriousBox: alright perhaps you never contemplated. just acknowledge then? :P
Numberonemole: Primitive, but enjoyable, or so I've been told by others.
TheMysteriousBox: others who are stupid. :P
Numberonemole: Acknowledge..no...accept I can improve, yes.
TheMysteriousBox: you're in denial. :P
Numberonemole: I never said I wasn't stupid sometimes, I just don't contemplate it.
TheMysteriousBox: then acknowledge that you have stupid times just as other humans do. :P
Numberonemole: I accept I can improve on myself.
TheMysteriousBox: I will take that as "yes I'm stupid sometimees"

28.11.03

Fillers to Tears: Commentary on Full Moon Wo Sagashite (Part I)

I'm neglecting to do my English review sheet to do an analysis of FMWS and how the plotline with its fillers is indeed effective towards the watcher. Oh dear, look what English has done to me. There are most likely spoilers, so those who are in the process of watching FMWS or have not yet and intend to do so should not read.
FMWS has been said to have a rather lousy and cliche plotline, particularily because of all the fillers it has in between its main plotline. Yet it is because of these 40 episodes of interchange between somewhat related to the plotline and a completely pointless filler that episodes 42 to 46 (around? somewhere around there) are so effective. In essence, it is because we already watched 20 hours of Mitsuki saying "I love you Eichi" that it comes to us as an emotional shock once we get to episode 40 that we find out Eichi is dead. Indeed, it certainly could have been predicted, yet still it provides a great shock of emotion and remorse to see this 12 year old girl so hopefully singing through her way of troubles only to discover that the one thing she aims for most... is not there. Even though many have been through about 25 episodes of filler that has nothing to do with the plot but only about Mitsuki's life: some that are interesting and fun to watch, others that are not as great but expected as this is a child's TV show, and others which are just plain stupid and pointless (Shinigami Rock?!?!?). All these fillers of seemingly happy times where Mitsuki is able to triumph through tragedy... shattered in one blow, Episode 42, when all that hope of trying to see her one true love has proven to be a disaster. Thus, fillers play a crucial role in providing to the watcher "eye candy" (pardon the phrase if it has any secret meaning) and nice music to go along with it until the shocking truth behind Eichi is revealed. Because if anyone really thinks about it, if they only had about 5 episodes where she becomes a star and goes to visit Eichi and finds out he's dead, its emotional, but not really to extent to someone feeling emotionally unstable for a whole weekend. However, because there was so much buildup from filler episodes and episodes in relation to the plotline alike, that it can cause so much emotion to stir up within the watcher. There is foreshadowing to this event in around episode 17 where Mitsuki seems as if she was about to die; already we have had so much experience Mitsuki and her happy life, and for her to just die right there would be quite tragic... of course, we could never see how much of an emotional impact the Eichi dilemma would have been back then.
Furthermore, the note that Eichi writes further adds pathos to the mood of the watcher; I just think of that letter and am immediately moved. Additionally, Eichi's deathleads to Mitsuki directing her childish attention to Takuto, which in turn leads to the effect of the major Theme in FMWS: Hope. This will be discussed later when I'm in the middle of writing my english Review Sheet again and am overtaken by a chance to BS some commentary on an anime that never should have deserved any. 'Tis sad really... Its as if English has forever corrupted the way I view entertainment these days...

20.11.03

SAL2's HAS A LOW POINT IN HIS EVILNESS

TheMysteriousBox: your skill, thirst for violence and powerhungryness really suits the politican
Numberonemole: Lets say you have 2 groups...The Dancers and The Runners
TheMysteriousBox: becomes a revolutionary
TheMysteriousBox: start the next wave of... Salism
TheMysteriousBox: because for you to be in science... :/ I think you're a little to concerned about taking over the world than to concentrate on your work
Numberonemole: I perfer not polotics, but trying to use peoples stupidy against them
TheMysteriousBox: hello lawyers
TheMysteriousBox: "I SUE YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T SAY I'LL GET FAT AT MCDONALDS
Numberonemole: That is to low of an evil, even for me
TheMysteriousBox: EVEN THOUGH IT SAYS ON THE LABEL 100 G OF FAT"
TheMysteriousBox: :o Sal2 has a low?
Numberonemole: Yes..lawyars

16.11.03

A case of severe immunal response to a uninvited pathogen

I was sick this weekend.

Apparently, I get sick at social events. Literally. First time, in some counterstike online gaming place, I got sick and nearly vomited. This weekend I was sick... Homecoming weekend. not that it really mattered, wasn't going anyway, but...-Guai
Gosh DARNIT did a lot of time go down the drain for my recovery. I could have finished a great deal of work if I wasn't sick. College Applications, english work, bio studying... all the things which I planned this weekend, all unfinished. What a real problem. -Thomas
However, I'm not all too disappointed at the inopportune timing of my sickness. In fact, being sick right now... actually isn't that bad compared to being sick at a test day or a regular school day for that matter. Sure, now I have to make up a bunch of work, but nevertheless, I can still do it without having severe "dang I should drop IB Diploma now" problems. Also, by being sick I am once again reminded that I should not be too technical and reasoning at all things by actually experiencing sickness again... the pain and agony of being sick, its only part of being human, thus I need it to be less... desensitized. Speaking of agony, I realize after being burning and dried up inside my bed while it was raining outside that dying by fire would be really quite painful. Not like drowning would be much better. My #1 preference is still Carbon Monoxide; From what I've heard, you die by falling asleep! Of course, no one actually came back from the dead and said that, but hey, the scientists said that. >.> <.< -Engi
Should start on math now... Ya know, you didn't get any piano done over this weekend. -Thomas
I know... -_-.... -Engi

11.11.03

For Better or Worse

"I once complained about not having shoes until I saw a man that had no feet." -Arab Proverb. (Or something similar to that)

Its interesting how I view life all the time: I always look at how Arcadia High School is better than here, how that chess player is better than me, how they can play the piano better than I can... I never look at material items, but nevertheless, the same point can still be made. I never really contemplated that I could have been stuck at a gang sort of school or with no education at all; that I may have been stuck farming in the Cultural Revolution rather than sitting at home playing chess; that I even know what a Piano is. I am in fact very grateful that I can know all this.
Then again, to get to where I am, my parents had to look at a situation better than theirs and do stuff about it. Same goes for here I guess: I have to look at who's playing better than me, and learn from him.
So... be happy with what you have, but look at other people happier than you so you can humble yourself and try to be like them. ok then. -???

8.11.03

Work Overload

College Applications, School Homework, Science Bowl, and Panel Testing for Piano... I have quite a bunch of things to do. In fact, I should be doing these thigns right now!!! GO GO GO!!! -Thomas.
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No. I'm busy playing chess. :P -Guai
-_-;;- Thomas.

Alright enough with the inner voices. I'm finished with my 4000 word lab! YIPEE!!! Well, kind of. First, I still need references and an abstract. -_- then, I still have over the word limit, EVEN THOUGH I already reduced it by like, a bunch. -__- ah well. Lets handle stress one at a time right?
Thomas: You still have your college applications.
SHUT UP ALREADY!! ONTO CHESS!!!!
Engi: Hey you're not done with Piano lessons yet!
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Guai: Argh.

*goes to... do something, depends on which of the three win the fight in my head*

1.11.03

I like this author

My sister was browsing an author of her book's website and then had to goto sleep. She left this on my computer; I read some if it.

...Nice. ~_^

check out the part about geeks. :D
-???